And I was happy, but didn’t know how was I to celebrate it!

It was 10.30 p.m when I received the email. I normally sleep by this time but I was caught up with something that day. I had just laid in my bed and was trying to sleep when my mobile vibrated (louder than usual). Had it been other days, I’d have ignored the vibration and preferred to sleep but that very day, something urged me to check my phone and so I followed my heart. (May be my instinct worked this time)

The email was special. And I knew it was special as soon as I saw its subject blinking in my Samsung set.

I hadn’t checked the email yet but my heart started beating up like a drum. It was as loud as the drummer beating his drums in a concert. And I could literally hear my own heart beat.

I wanted to shout, cry out, jump from the bed, dance and howl like wolves in winters. But, 606 km away from home, I had to make sure that I controlled my emotions as I was inside the room of a hotel where there were other guests as well in my neighboring rooms.

I, then, threw my mobile away in bed, grabbed my laptop and switched it on. Till my laptop gained its life, I took my mobile, called Aayu, my sister.

“Aayu, I have a good news”, I said. My heart was out of my chest till now. I knew she was unwell and must have slept by then but who cares when I had such terrific news to share. She was half asleep but she still gained her consciousness and asked what the good news was. I unveiled the good news.

 I was literally shivering in a temperature of 37⁰C. As soon as Aayu heard the news, may be mom was beside her, both of them jumped and shouted.

I was running out of emotions by then. I was expressionless. I was so much in merry that I was numb. At the same time I had a qualm. A doubt, what if, someone was playing a prank on me. What if the good news was just to make a fool out of me and later they would apologize and ask for forgiveness.

That feeling shattered my dreams again. I asked Aayu to check my email and confirm if I was dreaming or was that really a reality. I was frozen again. I didn’t know how was I supposed to express my happiness.

I knew, knew the very moment that the email was about to change my life forever. I thanked God and everyone else who prayed for me, though I was still bewildered about the news.

I couldn’t sleep that night. My heart couldn’t stay calm the night. I tried my best to make a peace with my heart and have some sleep but my restless heart won the war and my poor sleep was defeated. I spent that entire night tossing here and there in the bed and playing with my emotions.

I wanted to share the good news with the world, but I knew, I couldn’t do that until I was confirmed about it myself. I restricted the good news with some special people of my life. I was still wondering what could be better than this in my life. I just got what I had always wanted and dreamt of.  Even though, it was “THE” happiest moment in my life, I couldn’t express my happiness.

I am still unsure if the good news will really turn out to be a reality. I still have sleepless nights and fear in my heart and mind. I still get goose bumps when I think of making my dream turn into a reality and living it to the fullest.

Will keep you updated about THE GOOD NEWS in later posts. Just pray to God that I get to celebrate it. J